Simple joy in music and sound

I've started singing to LLM randomly while I'm playing with him.  He's particularly fond of the ABC's / Twinkle twinkle.  Not quite a fan of the itsy bitsy spider, however.  I get the "WTF" face when I sing that one.  I love watching his face light up in a big grin and he starts waving his little appendages around.  The pure joy of new experiences.  Watching him, I remember the excitement of learning new things, exploring different mediums.  Realizing, I've lost that excitement...knowing I'll have that again as I experience them once more through LLM's eyes.  It's a gift to treasure.

MM: "I'm making a Spotify playlist of children's songs to play for Clay...oh God kmn..."

So I created a kids songs playlist, since I realized my normal variety of music may be slightly inappropriate advanced, for a child. The MM part of me is excited to play this music for LLM and watch him to see which songs he likes, and which ones he doesn't.  To sing along and learn different things thru music. The me part of me is going, "ODG" thinking about the endless repeat of his favorite songs yet to come.  It's not even close to starting and I'm already dreading it. But at the same time, I want to preserve his innocence for as long as possible considering the kinds of music being played now being quite sexually charged.  Let's, uh, not go there quite yet.  I'll probably be the mom that really wants to believe her child is a virgin up til he gets married.


When LLM's in the mood, he'll turn his head towards different sounds, looking for its source. We're intrigued by the crinkly sounds of cello toys.  Then as he looks around, when he sees mommy smiling at him he just smiles right back.  And I swear...MadMommy melts.  Sigh, can I go home now and squeeze him?